Wow, it's been almost a year!

I just made some yummy peanut butter fudge, and thought I'd share the recipe!

1/2 cup butter
2 cups brown sugar
1/2 cup heavy cream (or milk, I just like to use cream)
1 cup peanut butter (I prefer Reese's!)
1 teaspoon vanilla extract
3 cups confectioners' sugar

1. Melt butter in a medium saucepan over medium heat.
2. Stir in brown sugar and milk. Bring to a boil and boil for 2 minutes, stirring frequently.
3. Remove from heat. Stir in peanut butter and vanilla.
4. Pour over confectioners' sugar in a large mixing bowl. Beat until smooth.
5. Pour into an 8x8 inch dish. Chill until firm and cut into squares.

It's yumm-oh! And a helpful hint, if you have some wax paper, line your pan with it first and then it comes out super easy and just peels off the wax paper!

A Grand New Year

This year has been nothing but great so far.. Justin is completely out of the picture I think.. He hasn't been here, or tried to contact me since he came with the cops to get the last of his stuff.. It's a great relief.. I've found someone new to keep my attention. I love it. He's great! Keegan likes him, and he is good with him.... His boys love me and I love them.... Alls good :] I'll keep ya posted on that ;)

Keegan is growing like a weed! We are potty training and it's an up and down process! He's doing great at day care.... Hasn't really been having any accidents there, it's just tackling the at home accidents.... We will get there :) He also just had his first haircut about three weeks ago.... He doesn't even look like the same kid! It's crazy! I miss his hair, but well that's part of letting go of him being a baby! He's my big boy now.... I can't believe I have a running, crazy, rotten two year old!

I love my job! I love the kids! I can't imagine doing anything else! All in all.... Things are good :)

Something has to give!

My emotions are yet again at a breaking point. From all of the mess that is my break-up with Justin to trying to figure out how to get out of the hole he has point me in financially. I feel like I get one step forward just to be knocked back four steps. I'm not sure how much more I can take. I'm trying my damnedest to be strong and believe that God doesn't give you more than you can handle, but I mean really can't he test someone else. I just need a break. Something has to give. Being the holiday season I think everyone is struggling. But I just feel like I'm barely keeping my head above water. All because he's a lying bastard that didn't feel he needed to pay the bills that HE was supposed to pay. Seriously you are 26 and you don't feel the need to be responsible. I guess that's why you were single when I got with you. Had I had known that I would go from having ONE son to TWO I would have never came here with him. I guess you live and learn. I now have a job that I absolutely LOVE, and a place to call my own. Granted I am struggling, really struggling, right now trying to play catch up (and pay everything needed in the current time) because of him, but I believe I will come out of this on top. It's just going to be rough and right now I'm not sure how it's going to happen but it will. Maybe I should play the lottery. Gosh, it will help if I could hit it, but really that's not practical. How I wish it was though. Having all of this idle time is doing nothing but giving me more time to think about everything. They say idle hands are the devil's playground and really I believe that idle time is the devil's time, as well. The more time I sit here alone the more I think and the sadder I get about it all. I'm thankful to have a healthy, gorgeous son and a job, but really I need something else to give. I'm doing my best to provide the best life possible for my son and I feel like I'm just being spit in the face for trying to do it on my own. I really need a break.

I'm beyond excited to go home to see my family and friends in a little less than two weeks, but I know that when I come back I'm going to struggle more than I am now. Taking two days off work is going to put me back 18 hours of pay. That's devastating that it comes to me seeing my family and friends for Christmas or being able to make all my bills. It shouldn't be this way. I wish that he wouldn't have put me in this position. Really. I don't know what to do.

Something really has to give.

So maybe..

..it's not a update post but I'd like to get back into a routine again, soooo.. here are my desktops from August & September. [ i was too busy in June and July ]


August is from GG Digital Designs & you can find it {HERE}.


September is from The Bloc Creative & you can find it {HERE}.


Annnnddd of course my October desktop, made by none other than the FABULOUS Megan Turnidge! You can download this desktop {HERE}.

I'm so out of whack!

First of all do you like my new look?! Let me know ;)

I'm going to attempt to be back in a little while with an update, but we will see how that goes! Heck maybe I'll even have my desktops for you to see :)

TYLENOL RECALL

From a mama who is a bit bothered by this, I thought it was important that I pass it on!! Read more about it here: http://www.tylenol.com/generic.jhtml?id=tylenol/news/subpchildinfantnews.inc

Friday Fill-Ins #140

I know I know it's been a WHILE! a loooong while..

1. I feel tired.

2. Photoshop is always fun. (well almost always)

3. Right now, I can hear these things: Everybody Loves Raymond, the a/c and my laptop keys.

4. I can smile and I'm glad that is possible.

5. The last time I saw my mommy was the weekend after my birthday & I miss her sooo much.

6. Relaxation is in order for this Labor day weekend.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to computer time, tomorrow my plans include nothing really, sitting on the couch & watching college football with Justin and Sunday, I want to do the laundry!